Think Logical

A friend I knew, has been beside my show for a while. I dont know how it came to be. It's like a mysterious plant, just sprouted out of my backyard and I have no choice to take care of it.

After the tragedy, I've been asking myself questions on my questions I ask myself.
"How make a close friend, accept who you are?" I asked myself. It's just so weird cause from the beginning, I thought friendship was about acceptance. But I dont know. I guess, the world has been really changing with our human race. I'm pretty sure, it hasnt been that rough, has it?

I cried that night. The night I received a text that may have fulfilled the true thing he wanted to say. It broke my heart. I've been holding on to something that may have no Idea there has been a something who made a choice to hang on.

One of part of life that's so hard to get, is best sacrifices loses to negligence. I know expecting in return is not the thing to give intention, but, it's just a different feeling. Working for no salary is such. I dont know what to do while I'm in it. But why did I do it in the first place? Because. Because I thought it was the one for me. I've lost my self control repellent. I've lost my life.

After the stressful night, I've realized a lot. Too much has been done, too much, just too much but why do I keep on going? I'm tired, but I still wonder why I'm alive. It's like trees in the woods. Why do they grow when no one plants them unlike our backyard plants who we are the one take of it? There's a spirit in me I cant explain. It keeps me going even though I'm so dull and full of darkness. It keeps me going even though I dont want to stand up, dont want to move. Who is it? Just call me the usual.
I've been weird every since. That may be the reason no one could read through my eyes. My body may have already given up and my spirit may have already been flushed into deep obscurity, my eyes are still wide open hoping for someone who could turn every sadness into bright long lasting sunshine. My eyes are my only hope. I'll just keep them open while my time isnt today.