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"You are what you think, You do what you think in the simplest ways"Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Bestfriend
I have this friend that got upset. To be honest, I dont know what's the best word to describe what he feels. Retracing the steps makes want to cry, but still, crying wont help anything.
It has been weeks or almost months since it happened. I really didnt know in terms that, I didnt know till I read his post that night. Just reading the words "wont", "forgive" and "anymore" just shot me. I really didnt know what do. But I couldnt blame him to get upset, just not that upset. I couldnt imagine, after everything, he would just give up. But, like they say, "The damage has been done".
I didnt talk to him after that day. We've already got into this and it was the roughest moments for the both of us and I just screwed it up again. In my side, it was the first time I could agree something against me. I guess, I accepted his win. It was fresh and It came tumbling down again. Who could explain that better? No one. He was right, I was wrong. But then again, damage, already done.
Weeks past, I've started to accept what happened and I guess he did too. I've been busy with myself, and I guess he did too. But honestly, I didnt know. I've lost communication and, maybe it was the thing he wanted. It was some moments I could explore my iPod more when I get the chance to check my notes and see a note he made for me and hope he would still remember what he said. But if he forgot, it's okay, maybe our friendship wasnt really made to last forever.
December came, I've got myself a bit stable and thats when I could feel something missing. Something special, irreplaceable, something very special. I've checked up on him for a few days, and he has been looking great. Perhaps he made a better life without me. Moved on a greater road. I'm happy for him.
I could recall everything weve done together that I havent done to others. Be on the phone for 6 hours just talking even though it was very non sense. Good times. Comes to reality, they are countless. I would also tell myself "After all of these, this is where we ended up.". I guess those moments are over. He's doing great ; moved on, and I should do the same too. It's really over.
Ryan, if you got the chance to read this, I'm really sorry for hurting you. I never wanted to hurt you, I know you know that. You were my bestfriend and I thank God for giving you to me. I know I made a mistake. I dont want to die without saying sorry to you regarding what happened but I just couldnt talk to you. Your hands my hands. I really miss you Ryan. I really, really do. But I'm okay even if youre not interested anymore. I've already accepted the fact that I can get the old days back.
I just wanted you to know that I'm really sorry. I'll never forget the bestfriend I always loved every since.
Enjoy your Christmas Ryan
It has been weeks or almost months since it happened. I really didnt know in terms that, I didnt know till I read his post that night. Just reading the words "wont", "forgive" and "anymore" just shot me. I really didnt know what do. But I couldnt blame him to get upset, just not that upset. I couldnt imagine, after everything, he would just give up. But, like they say, "The damage has been done".
I didnt talk to him after that day. We've already got into this and it was the roughest moments for the both of us and I just screwed it up again. In my side, it was the first time I could agree something against me. I guess, I accepted his win. It was fresh and It came tumbling down again. Who could explain that better? No one. He was right, I was wrong. But then again, damage, already done.
Weeks past, I've started to accept what happened and I guess he did too. I've been busy with myself, and I guess he did too. But honestly, I didnt know. I've lost communication and, maybe it was the thing he wanted. It was some moments I could explore my iPod more when I get the chance to check my notes and see a note he made for me and hope he would still remember what he said. But if he forgot, it's okay, maybe our friendship wasnt really made to last forever.
December came, I've got myself a bit stable and thats when I could feel something missing. Something special, irreplaceable, something very special. I've checked up on him for a few days, and he has been looking great. Perhaps he made a better life without me. Moved on a greater road. I'm happy for him.
I could recall everything weve done together that I havent done to others. Be on the phone for 6 hours just talking even though it was very non sense. Good times. Comes to reality, they are countless. I would also tell myself "After all of these, this is where we ended up.". I guess those moments are over. He's doing great ; moved on, and I should do the same too. It's really over.
Ryan, if you got the chance to read this, I'm really sorry for hurting you. I never wanted to hurt you, I know you know that. You were my bestfriend and I thank God for giving you to me. I know I made a mistake. I dont want to die without saying sorry to you regarding what happened but I just couldnt talk to you. Your hands my hands. I really miss you Ryan. I really, really do. But I'm okay even if youre not interested anymore. I've already accepted the fact that I can get the old days back.
I just wanted you to know that I'm really sorry. I'll never forget the bestfriend I always loved every since.
Enjoy your Christmas Ryan
Lance Albert
posted by Lancedcape # 8:28 AM 
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